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I'M NOT DEAD YET

Sun Oct 18, 2009, 12:36 PM
  • Mood: Unhappy
  • Listening to: Alive - Raiko (LOVES * - *)
ಠ_ಠ ಥ_ಥ ಡ_ಡ ఠ_ఠ อ้_อ้ อ_อ ತ_ತ ٩͡๏̯͡๏۶ ๏̯๏ * ∆ *
^These are made of WIN^

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Sorry I've been so inactive ; _ ;
Too busy with school, social implications and, um.... Subeta.
-hides behind couch-

So yeah. Ugghh, I had over 200 messages when I checked today, and over 600 deviations @ __ @;
So sorry, I just... deleted them all > >; ...Well except for a few new messages. Because I wuv messages ' v ' -blinkblink-

Most of my works are going to be Subeta commissions for a while now... XD; Just sayin'.

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In other news...

GRAAAW! I want that new tablet! You know, the one where you can see the screen? That's somewhere around $1,000?
I WANT IT.
Meg's computer costed $2,000, and hey! This thing would give me the same thing I loved about Meg's laptop but for $1,000 less!
So, I MUST GET SOME SORT OF JOB, SAVE UP, AND GET ONE Q(* - *Q) -determination-
My Mom says I should try to get a job as a typist. Coool : D I'm pretty wicked fast at typing. Last time I checked my WPM, it was an average of 105. And that was in... 7th grade XD;

...Oh schiesse, my parents still owe me $64 and then $20 for my birthday money... > <; Grrrr!

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)
:icontamakari-chan::iconthepottydance::iconlost260::icondintrosaur::iconkarl-dono::iconfrodomeg::iconsorrowfuldragon:
:iconpurplewolfstar::iconanko666::icontssdyeah::iconverbalatyx::iconastrorip::iconyaoi-lover-yoko::iconcarebearexplosion:
:iconusagi-foofoo::iconblacksen:

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WALK YOUR GUINEA PIG!!!

Sat Oct 3, 2009, 12:24 PM
  • Mood: I Have To Pee
  • Listening to: Headslide First Into Cooperson... - Fall Out Boy
  • Reading: Of Mice And Men//J.K. Rowling's Bio (for school)
  • Drinking: Lemonade (that's not agreeing with my stomach)
ಠ_ಠ ಥ_ಥ ಡ_ಡ ఠ_ఠ อ้_อ้ อ_อ ತ_ತ ٩͡๏̯͡๏۶ ๏̯๏ * ∆ *
^These are made of WIN^

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:iconfrodomeg: :iconfrodomeg: :iconfrodomeg:
[link]

My sister made it, and I love it! ^ u ^
And I think that other people will love it too!
But sadly, meine schwester doesn't get many pageviews.
So! I'm here to advertise her, because she deserves more recognition.

......OH MY GOD NOW I WANT TO GET A GUINEA PIG FOR PET WHEN I'M GROWN UP AND HAVE MY OWN PLACE THEN GET A LEASH FOR IT SO I CAN WALK IT AROUND.

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In other news...
Feelin' a bit melancholic lately.
I've been having loads of fun, but sadly I've been having trouble with having fun. I dunno, but whenever I'm uber happy, I tend to immediately switch over to depressed and worried :I Eh, my therapist will deal with that though, so no fear for me XD

Also, I've been doing a lot of traditional art. Well... not really 'art'. I've been in a horrible art slump (and you would know that if you read my last journal), so I've decided to start practicing. I noticed I was not really good with face angles, or character consistency (it's easy with anime, but since I've got a different style now it's difficult!). I decided, "Fuck special fun details, I'll just do those for when I'm actually making an art piece." And thusly, I just started sketching out faces. I used my journal at school; In three lines I made an oval, then spaced out two more at the same level. Then I put the lines for eyes, nose and mouth placement. Thusly, I used those to create a person. By doing this, I practiced both character consistency and face angles all at the same time. And within three days I dramatically improved! Woohoooo!
I'll post up those sketches sometime. But not now (because I'm at the library).

(If you read this all the way through, post "Did you know my soul is in a ketchup bottle in the back of my frigde?" Feel free to copy and paste that.)

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)
:icontamakari-chan::iconthepottydance::iconlost260::icondintrosaur::iconkarl-dono::iconfrodomeg::iconsorrowfuldragon:
:iconpurplewolfstar::iconanko666::icontssdyeah::iconverbalatyx::iconastrorip::iconyaoi-lover-yoko::iconcarebearexplosion:
:iconusagi-foofoo::iconblacksen:

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Not Doing So Well // I'm Sorry Guys...

Tue Sep 22, 2009, 12:12 PM
  • Mood: Neglect
  • Playing: Pokemon Diamond - OH YES.
  • Eating: Fruit Rings (The bagged copy of Fruit Loops)
ಠ_ಠ ಥ_ಥ ಡ_ಡ ఠ_ఠ อ้_อ้ อ_อ ತ_ತ ٩͡๏̯͡๏۶ ๏̯๏ * ∆ *
^These are made of WIN^

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I have put the important points in bold for your convenience.

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Ugh...

So, we're moved in. And yet I'm going through a major moody phase. I'm just getting so angry all the time.
And my social life is sucking. I'm on the brink of identity crisis again, and people aren't even listening to me anymore.
I wish to start conversations with random bits of information such as, "It's weird that there is no set 'Yes' or 'No' in Chinese. It's all contextual.", and, "Did you know there are actually definitions to the nonsense words in Jabberwocky? They're talked about in Through The Looking Glass." But no one cares.
I learn people's names so I can say hello to them later if I had a nice single-serving conversation with them in the past. And if I say hello to them ever, they look at me blankly and walk away.
I feel just like I did last year: Awkward, out of place, and that my good points are invisible.

(Sorry to drop the emo-bomb on you.)

Now, I started off this school year with a new out-look on things. I told myself, "If I can't get anywhere socially this year, I'll just go quietly about my work and hone my art skills."
And of course, right now, I'm in a HUGE art-block (all except for little chibi-Pokemon because I'm a major nerd). So, what am I to do?
It's like elementary school. I started art at about age 1, and continued through preschool and kindergarten being entirely anti-social, only focusing on art and being completely oblivious of everything else. Then, in elementary I had no social skills, and only art. I continued art because that was my only way to make the teasing stop; the moments that they saw whatever I had drawn.
Now, I'm again socially awkward, and guess what? I even feel inadequate with my art now. If somebody sees my work at school, they say in a monotone voice, "Oh, cool." And then turn away with absolutely no interest whatsoever. No social comfort, no art comfort. I am vulnerable to my own disease now. Yaaay.

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"I'm Sorry Guys..."

I'm not going to be able to do those free sketches... I just can't sketch on this stupid tablet like how I did with the last one. And I'm not going to sketch them traditionally, sorry... With my low self-esteem in art, I would just scrap one after another.
But hey, at least they were free, right? It's not like you had to pay and then not get them...

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)
:icontamakari-chan::iconthepottydance::iconlost260::icondintrosaur::iconkarl-dono::iconfrodomeg::iconsorrowfuldragon:
:iconpurplewolfstar::iconanko666::icontssdyeah::iconverbalatyx::iconastrorip::iconyaoi-lover-yoko::iconcarebearexplosion:
:iconusagi-foofoo::iconblacksen:

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GOOD LORD: BIRTHDAY, MOVING, NO TABLET WAARGH!!!

Tue Sep 1, 2009, 7:45 AM
  • Mood: Hysterical
  • Listening to: What A Catch, Donnie - Fall Out Boy
  • Playing: Pokemon Diamond - OH YES.
ಠ_ಠ ಥ_ಥ ಡ_ಡ ఠ_ఠ อ้_อ้ อ_อ ತ_ತ ٩͡๏̯͡๏۶ ๏̯๏ * ∆ *
^These are made of WIN^

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I have put key-points in bold for your convenience.

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EDIT!!

IT'S MY BIRTHDAAAAAY!!

....But I'm not happy ; ___ ;
I'm doing more manual labor today. This sucks ass.

But anyway, by 8:00 PM tonight (Hehe, the same time I take my meds XD) I'll be 15.

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OH. MY. GAWD.

For the past... long time, my family has been moving. We now have our new house almost completely set up, and our old house almost completely empty. It's been a bumpy road though.... Well, more like a road that was so tarnished and smeared with aged tar that it looked close to crumbling. We had to move everything on our own with a rented truck. Yes, all of our furniture, and all of our boxes. And we're not that strong either. We now have bruises, scrapes, bizmillions of bug-bites, and strained muscles comin' out the Yin-Yang. We've had laughs and jokes, exhausted flops onto chairs, nearly-fractured skulls, and the inevitable furious, sob-inducing family feud all within these few days. It's been crazy.

Also, our car is sucky as usual. We have the most suck-tastic car. No, it's not a giant frame of rust, nor does it have duct-tape holding the windows in place, but it sucks because it has a new problem pretty much every week -sigh-

And GRAAAGH. MY BIRTHDAY IS ON TUESDAY. WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN IF WE DON'T HAVE A CAR? I no gets special dinner ; _ ; (And don't say, "Have a special dinner at home", because we only have basic food at our new house anyway.)

Aaaaaaaand, WTFSALDFJALSKJDFLAKJSDFLJASFD! The tablet is still DEAD! There's been so much going on that we haven't been able to tend to it! And who knows when we'll get it working? School starts up soon! Oh woe is me.... Y __ Y

...

But, there have been good things. I've had friends over all the time for helping, and everyday we've got to go swimming in an epic 90-degree pool because there's a community one right in our neighborhood. In fact, my friend ~SorrowfulDragon has practically been LIVING with us. She's been here since day one helping us, and having sleepovers because her mom has been at the hospital and home is not really a cheerful place right now ( she went home yesterday though, and all is well... I, in fact, spent the night |D; )
We haven't had internet until just now, so I have been entertaining myself with Pokemon Diamond. WOOH! I LOVE this game! And now I feel all bubbly inside that we have internet again (even though it's just wired.)

So. That is what has been up with me and not being active. Sorreh guys!

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In other news! We do have Photoshop still, even though the IBM is ka-put. My sister installed it on the Dell (which I am on right now), and she even ordered a Bamboo. I hate it with a firey passion of a thousand suns, but until the IBM is FINALLY fixed (in a few months? -sobsob-) I'll have to get used to it.
I hate it not only because I can't see what I'm doing on it, like on the IBM, but because we have yet to figure out how to make it pressure-sensitive!
All I have been able to do with it so far is a sketchy painting of an eye (the one thing I'm ALWAYS good at; eyes). So, for now even with Photoshop and a tablet, there will be no free sketches, no commission-present for my buddy ~tamakari-chan, no finishing of my paintings, and no DS-Adventure comic series (something you will find out about in the future when I can work on them. Right now only ~tamakari-chan and ~SorrowfulDragon know about it...)
HOWEVER. I have some pixel ideas, and I can do those. Yippee! Also, I have some traditional sketches which I can take pictures of and edit with Photoshop, so that will be good!

And now, if you have actually survived the text-avalanche, please write, "Making fiends, making fiends, Vendetta's always making fiends. Making fiends, while Charlotte makes friends" in a comment. ('Tis from my new favourite TV show, 'Making Fiends'. Feel free to simply copy and paste that.)

This is Koi, signing off.

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10 Free Sketches
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1. Fluna [link]
2. Embrace-The-Darkness [link]
3. -kitsune- [link]
4. RainbowFever [link]
5. PurpleWolfStar
6. daises-and-vervain
7. psychoartist1101
8. Buneary
9. AngelCat-1339
10. mickey098

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)
:icontamakari-chan::iconthepottydance::iconlost260::icondintrosaur::iconkarl-dono::iconfrodomeg::iconsorrowfuldragon:
:iconpurplewolfstar::iconanko666::icontssdyeah::iconverbalatyx::iconastrorip::iconyaoi-lover-yoko::iconcarebearexplosion:
:iconusagi-foofoo::iconblacksen:

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Yay! My Mom's Got An Account! // ARGH D:

Sun Aug 16, 2009, 7:04 PM
  • Mood: Anxious
  • Listening to: Here Is The House - Depeche Mode
ಠ_ಠ ಥ_ಥ ಡ_ಡ ఠ_ఠ อ้_อ้ อ_อ ತ_ತ ٩͡๏̯͡๏۶ ๏̯๏ * ∆ *
^These are made of WIN^

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:iconechobingjing:
She made the account a while ago just to watch my sister, but just today I got her to go and take pictures of all of her works!
She doesn't have all of them up. Far from it, actually. I need to help her with it, and also we need to retake a lot of photos that are blurry. And when we get Photoshop back, we're editing them so the ones that are yellow from the stupid lighting won't be anymore.

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Here's why I said 'argh';

GRAW, I'M MISSING ONE OF MY MEDS. Thusly, I am going crazy ; _ ; It really sucks being off of meds. I'm getting all organization-obsessed, and it literally hurts.
Well, mentally. But I also hurt physically! I just went to the awesomest birthday party yesterday for my best friend, but it left me with sunburns and sore shoulders... > <;;

Also, it's been about two weeks and the friggin' computer place hasn't contacted us! They said it would take a few days for them to call us! > < Grrrr. I want that computer back.
And I can't use the other laptop right now either. We've just converted it from Vista to XP, and now the internet doesn't work, and the C drive still has Vista on it and it won't let us delete it. So my mom's gonna have to take that in... -sigh-

And we're moving on Monday!
PANIC TIME!! -fear-

Waaaah.... This sucks.

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On another note, for all of you with free sketches, even when we get the computer back up, you'll have to wait. And it's not because of my business either. My friend that had the birthday (~tamakari-chan) party gets to cut to the top of my commission list for her present |D; Sorreh.

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10 Free Sketches
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1. Fluna [link]
2. Embrace-The-Darkness [link]
3. -kitsune- [link]
4. RainbowFever [link]
5. PurpleWolfStar
6. daises-and-vervain
7. psychoartist1101
8. Buneary
9. AngelCat-1339
10. mickey098

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People I Friggin' Know In Real Life (BOOYAH)
:icontamakari-chan::iconthepottydance::iconlost260::icondintrosaur::iconkarl-dono::iconfrodomeg::iconsorrowfuldragon:
:iconpurplewolfstar::iconanko666::icontssdyeah::iconverbalatyx::iconastrorip::iconyaoi-lover-yoko::iconcarebearexplosion:
:iconusagi-foofoo::iconblacksen:

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